I'm just not feeling the holiday spirit this year. Now that my children are grown and I've yet to have any grandchildren, the season really hasn't held the same magic that it held for me a few short years ago. But this year's seasonal disgust and aggravation has nothing to do with that or the over commercialization of Christmas or the hoards of irate holiday bargain hunters. Or even those people forever trying to get me to part with my hard earned cash for some godforsaken charity that I could give two shits about. It doesn't even have anything to do with the money I've spent this year for people that I don't care about whatsoever. I know why and it has nothing to do with the season. It's been eating at me like a parasite eating through a carcass. It's more than just the usual crap. A couple of weeks ago I found out that my one and only son will be deployed with his unit to the Middle East in February.
My son, the fruit of my loins.
I want to punch someone.........real bad!!!
Bah humbug!!!
Reggie, I can't pretend to know what you're going through but I can empathize. When my younger sister called me to help her ger her affairs in order for her deployment last year every part of me wanted to curl up in a ball. The big sister in me wanted to single handedly end the war to keep my sister home... All I can do is offer my prayers and my thoughts and my gratitude to your son...
ReplyDeleteReggie as a parent, I can understand how difficult this has to be for you. I'll be holding up your son in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteCosign with Mlvlatina, every word.
ReplyDeleteReggie I'm with you on this holiday! I'm not feeling it at all. Your son is about to be deployed to fight for the country. While my son will be spending this his first Christmas behind prison walls for the next 2 years.#a broken heart!
ReplyDeleteI'm very proud of him DaenelT. But I'd much rather he were working towards his degree next year, rather than marching around the Middle East with his unit.
ReplyDeleteThank you Mlvlatina.
ReplyDeleteThank you Daij.
ReplyDeleteJjbrock there can be no doubt about it, I am very proud of my son; and while I'm not entirely pleased with his choice, I shall honor it. He deserves that from me because I love him and even though I don't necessarily like the choice, I absolutely respect it.
ReplyDeleteWe all love our sons, as I know you love yours. Broken hearts usually heal, I hope yours does.
All we can do at this point is to want the best for our sons. It's always darkest before the dawn. I'll wait for the sun if you promise to do the same.
Merry Xmas Reggie! dude I'm at that stage where the glee on my two boys faces get its all going. Prayers out to your son to handle his deployment and see it through safely
ReplyDeleteEnjoy your boys while they're young Chrome. Before you know it they'll go from boys to men.
ReplyDeleteAll I ask is that he come back home safe and sound.
Seasons Greetings Reggie and to the family, your son will be in my prayers and am sure he will kick his degree with flying colours all the way!!
ReplyDeleteSeasons Greetings ChilledLeo. Reggie Jr is currently a junior in college. When he gets back I hope he doubles down and focuses on that graduation date.
ReplyDeleteWow, Reggie, that's definitely a reason to feel down during the holidays. But hopefully he's home now and you can enjoy this time with him before he leaves.
ReplyDeleteHang in there!
He's supposed to be back by next Christmas Val, still I hate to see him go.
ReplyDeleteIm sorry about this Reggie. Is it wrong for me to say that I wish our children didnt have to go to war? Or whatever is going on over there?
ReplyDeleteIm praying for your son's safe return, and that he picks right back up with his life where he left off. GRADUATION!
I pray for you too, my brother.
Anna Renee I can honestly tell you that I wish that our children never have to go to war again. I love my son dearly and it makes me sick to my stomach to think of him getting deployed. But I have to honor his choice.
ReplyDeleteI sincerely hope that he picks back up on his commitment to getting a degree as soon as his deployment runs full circle.
We both need as many prayers as we can get.
I hope and pray that your son goes and return, safe, whole and sane.
ReplyDeleteI spent part of today with my sons and the wee people. The best gift I received was watching my 3 year old grandson reading addresses and signs correctly. That was priceless to me.
Sending my prayers and love to you and your son Reggie..
ReplyDeleteMsLadyDeborah it seemed like just a year or two ago when Reggie was doing the same thing your grandson did today. It warmed my heart then and the thought of it warms my heart still.
ReplyDeleteThank you Dawna.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear that :(. May God watch over him.
ReplyDeleteI know you are sad, mad and scared I'm always hear to listen when you need a friend. I will keep him and your family in my prayers until his safe return home
ReplyDeleteYes indeed Catintherain!!! Yes indeed!!!
ReplyDelete....and a few other things too Roz. But I'm trying to keep it in perspective, because I want to honor his choice. I respect him for enlisting. He's 22, he's an adult, but he's always going to be my child. I love him with all my heart and I would gladly give up my life for him.
ReplyDeleteI don't want to know what this world would be like without my children. I hope to never find out. I remember when my Uncle Andrew died when I was 17, it was the only time that I ever remember seeing my maternal grandfather cry. He told me then that it's UNNATURAL for a father to have to bury one of his children. That has stuck with me for almost 30 years. I'll always remember that moment.
Oh Reggie... I will keep him in m prayers an my thoughts. I dont like the idea of your son over there either :-( not even a little bit.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about that. He will definitely be in my prayers. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteThank you Michelle. Although I've known for awhile now that he would have to go, I don't like the idea of him going.......I never have either.
ReplyDeleteThank you No Labels.........hey it's been awhile.
ReplyDeleteWow! That's pretty deep. You have every reason to feel less than Christmasy, my Brotha. No apologies nor explanations needed. We feel you.... & we pray for him & for all the other brave young men and women still engaged in defending this country's freedom.
ReplyDeleteMay God Bless him & all the rest!
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That is beyond words for me. "I love him with all my heart and I would gladly give up my life for him," says it all and is a gift. I honor and am grateful for his service and your love for him.
ReplyDeleteYes indeed Moanerplicity, yes indeed!!!
ReplyDeleteI wish them all well, not just my son, but every mother's son and daughter there or going there.
I don't think that I could possibly love him more Calmcoach.
ReplyDeleteOhhh Reggie,I don't know what to say. I know I'd feel exactly like you if my only son were to be deployed.
ReplyDeleteMy husband told me that, when he was deployed to Vietnam,his father looked into his eyes and said," do whatever it is you have to do to get through it...just come back to me."
I will be praying for his safe return to you.
In my heart I believe he'll be alright and come back safe and sound. But this has been weighing on me since we found out, so I just wanted to get it off my chest.
ReplyDeleteThank you BayouCreole.
Uhhh Reg, did I miss those pics the first time around here or did you just add them?
ReplyDeleteLawd, he has this look that says,"if these folks take one more pic of me..."lol
He looks like you Reg.
Nah you didn't miss them, I just added them to the post about an hour or two ago.
ReplyDeleteOh and Reggie Jr. rarely smiles, he likes mean mugging.
Hey sis.
ReplyDeleteI read his some time ago, but I wanted to return closer to the time and let you know prayers are still going up for your son.
Peace,
SLC
Sis?!?
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